Subject:
Do
you know what it feels like when you have to make yourself busy in order to
forget something sad? It feels terrible and only makes you do silly things.
Okay, not all people do silly things, sometimes there are people who do useful
things in order t forget their sadness. People deal with sadness differently,
right?
In
my case of being away from my husband, I did a bunch of silly things today. I
still can’t forget the sadness I've been dealing with since he’s gone. I
watched some series, i downloaded some e-books I don’t know if I will read
them, I listened to some mellow music and sang along with it, I typed a bunch
of sad stories and I locked myself in my room cuddled up my Domo pillow and
doll.
The
worst scene is that I supposed to finish my paper instead of doing all those
silly activities. How can I encourage myself to focus on something like doing
my paper while I’m in my mourning period?
I miss him too damn much I can’t even think straight. This is what sadness and
longing for your husband could do to you. It’s just too stressful to deal with.
I suppose to rise up but I can’t. I guess I was never ready for him to leave.
to be continued . . .
X.O.X.O Chirpy Girl
X.O.X.O Chirpy Girl
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